Burnt Toast

This year has been a difficult one for me personally. I have had a turbulent introduction into the politics of a major corporation, being that The Salvation Army is also a Christian movement this has made some of the issues particularly difficult to swallow. The other day I was talking to my wife Peta and she turned to me and said matter of factly, “your burnt toast”! By burnt toast she was implying that I wasn’t so much burnt out, as being burnt out and not really recovering. I have to say that she is right. I wouldn’t say that I am burn out right now or that I’m a shell of the man I was, but there is definitely elements of ‘burnt toast’ about me. It’s interesting that we can at times let people or situations take our peace, joy, passion and compassion. There’s a Psalm that I will paraphrase which talks to God saying in essence, “God, you have allowed my path to become dangerous and me to be consumed by bitterness….But you will restore me.” This is my hope at the moment, for restoration. Despite me being ‘burnt toast’, there is still the capacity within the amazing love and compassion of God to restore me, create in me a clean heart and to renew my spirit. Regardless of the challenges, I have grown as a person and have experienced great joy, with many personal achievements and milestones. I guess that’s like a bit of peanut butter on my burnt toast.